I'm taking my anti-anxiety meds nearly every day now.
The only times I can get a respite is when my husband leaves the house and leaves me on my own while he's at work. Today is one of those days. I just had to endure three days in a row with him, which made me crazy.
My heart is beating really fast, and my breathing is off. I am trying to listen to meditative music right now to calm down.
I just turned down an interview because once again, the employee reviews were horrific -- overworked, burnout, lack of internal organization, "homework assignments" on top of large workloads, a CEO who doesn't care about employees. How long can this go on? I feel like the only companies looking for employees right now are the terrible and toxic companies. It's time to change my approach.
I'm in such a terrible position right now. This is most painful to endure.
I don't get it. WHY do I have to keep going through the most strenuous circumstances in life??????? If it's not one crisis, it's another, then another, then another. Can I please just get a break in life? WHY????????????? What did I do to deserve such constant strife, challenge and difficulty???????
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"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"
~4 Non Blondes
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