I'm sorry things are going this way for you, Toughcooki. I very much tend toward having acquaintances, not so much friends, so I know that no one really to call upon feeling. Do you happen to have the tendency to feel you're bothering people? This is a problem in my case, and I know it contributes to the issue. I'm trying. It's more challenging now with all that's going on, but I know there are meetup groups that are getting together online (zoom) and even some in person for hiking and such. Have you tried branching out to maybe find some new friends? The dynamic with the ones you mention is very unlikely to change. I don't know if it would help, but have you brought it up with them?