I can't begin to explain the layers and complication of this marriage, but at the end of the day I loved him. Now, he's leaving me (for sure, once his mind was made up that was it), and I just feel so depressed. I fought so hard every step of the way while he wasn't being forthright with me about his feelings. No compromises were made. It was either his way or mine in his mind. I'm also experiencing the loss of family and friends as I've been setting more firm boundaries.

Sometimes, it feels so unbearable I just want to die. Has anyone else been dealing with any of this? Especially the aspergers/autistic male leaving the marriage? I never thought he would break his routine like this... makes me feel horrible. Like I did something so dramatically wrong. But all I did was ask him to get tested and see a therapist.