I want to trip again. I might in 5-10 years.

I'm a mess. I would snort ketamine or take psilocybin microdose capsules if I knew that they wouldn't give me dissociation.

I took a few extra dextoamphetamine capsules to stay up and listen to music. Stimulants help with my dissociation.

I realize that a moderate dose makes me less productive than the average person but better than nothing - And a high dose makes me feel too good so I get absolutely nothing done.

I'm holding onto sanity. I can't even write anymore. I have zero motivation, zero creativity - That's why I want to trip. But I have schizophrenia and DP/DR.

I was craving a-PVP (Flakka - A bath salt that I tried 4 years ago) so I started looking at vendors - Wanting to buy cocaine as well.

I'm starting to think badly of myself. I feel like the whole world has went insane.