Thank you all!!! I wanted to place blame on others, and not take responsibility for my actions. And it's taken years to accept that responsibility. There has been so much anguish that I haven't known what to do, and overwhelmed by what others have told me. That I my issues affect others, and I need to do more to protect, no, to help myself feel better.

I took a questionnaire on what type of person I am.and I found out I'm a obliger. Which means I do things for others more than myself, which just makes me mad! And gives insight into the mental difficulties that I experience. I'm unhappy partly because I've done things more for others than myself. That's a lot to take in.

I do need to forgive myself. My brain adapted to challenges. And my body adapted as well. And I can work to change this and get to a better place. If only I had a direction to go!?