No you haven't offended me, in fact you've given me quite the glimpse of hope. I guess that's why I've always kept everything inside my whole life. I mean these aren't exactly the kinda things I can talk to my parents about...not without religious arguments and the shedding of tears. I had a therapist the first time, but lied about everything just so it would pass....now I kinda wish I would've gotten the help.

The day I approach them about therapy is going to be one heck of a day.....I'm already antsy about it and it's 5 months away....

thank you though...thank you all for the advice. I really do appreciate all the kind words from people here...I'm so glad I found this place.