I've heard that crying heals the soul so it must mean that the hurt you feel is beyond your physical body. I spent almost two years crying almost everyday, but I have lost a lot of people in my life. Physically, I wasn't hurt. They were very close to me. I'm not sure if you've heard of soul searching? Well if you do then believe in cleansing the soul or healing the soul. It is deep what you feel, beyond your body and your heart. We can't see what's wrong or why it affected us so much because we can't see our soul. But the crying, and I could almost see your cries are almost sobs from within. I truly hope you could get through this.