I cried every single day for as long as I can remember, sometimes all day long. At the first of the year, I started doing ketamine infusions. It was a miracle at first, but a couple of months ago it just stopped working....poof, no more happy. Everyone wants to just give me more drugs. I am so done with that worthless ****. 20 years and I still cry every day. My doctor and therapist want me to go into long term residential. I don't see what good it will do, but at least there I can't hurt anyone.