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I was raised with the idea that nothing is important in life other than education and money, and that people's respect is gained only by your social status you have from your job, money and possessions in general. That's why I wasn't allowed to go outside and play as a kid, and was hit when I got B at school. I wasn't encouraged to socialize. On the contrary, I was criticized for it. I was repeatedly told that "people are your enemy, and don't wish you well, and only books are your friends".
Also, my father has high expectations of me and I should conform to his vision. I must dress, act, and talk according to his vision. Otherwise, I would be criticized.
I am severely damaged emotionally and psychologically. He doesn't realize it, and refuse to admit he has anything to do with it. It's all my fault according to him. I am just a child adult. I have the maturity of child in an adult body. I have no resilience and no strengths, and small setbacks can throw me in beds for days.
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