Hope it went OK and that work is going well.


I can relate in some ways in that, especially now that I'm having sessions from home, it's like i have to sometimes go immediately from session to being "on" as a mother and wife. Like today, my session just ended and in a half hour, we're having a conference (online) with my daughter's teacher. Today's session was a bit emotional in the beginning, talking about my aunt who's in the hospital (not COVID), but if it had been one where, say, I'd had a conflict with T or talked about some really emotional stuff from my past, it would be difficult to wipe away the tears and act "normal" during the conference.

It was easier pre-COVID when I had sessions in person, then could go out someplace for a bit afterward, or even just sit in my car for a half hour in the therapist's parking lot and cry and/or message with friends.

One of the worst therapy-related things like that for me wasn't even right after a session, but the morning after I found out that ex-MC's wife had died. I'd been really emotional and had lots to drink that night, didn't get much sleep, then we had an in-person IEP meeting for my daughter. they make me really anxious anyway--and it's a bunch of us sitting around a table in a brightly lit, warm room, so I feel on display. I started crying and had a panic attack during the meeting and had to step out for a bit. I worried about what the teachers/specialists thought of me (I imagined the school psychologist was understanding!) H gave some vague explanation about me finding out some bad news the night before, but it was a really difficult meeting.