I woke up at 4:30 AM and couldn't sleep. My rage has not gone away.

Yesterday, I went ballistic on him. Absolutely ballistic.

Even though I was going to divorce him anyways, the betrayal still hurts me deeply and immensely.

I am floored that he has defended his so-called integrity to no end to me for the last year, demanding I trust him implicitly about other women, yelling at me about it even, and then he does this behind my back??

He was also lying in bed with ME at the time when he wrote to HER saying "see you in my dreams". So, he snuggled and cuddled with ME all night, thinking about HER as he went to sleep!!!

I am SICK. Literally SICKENED. I barely ate a single thing yesterday because of this.