Yes, insights and epiphanies aren't necessarily the great positive experiences people assign to them, that's true, and I've had my own awakening of insight which nearly destroyed me, as well, @Gasplessy. That's right. Very, very painful. But they say life is here to teach us and if that's true, then that's all the whole point must be - our mistakes and accompany remorse's are there only to teach. Life has struck you like a terrible thunderbolt and now you know, Gasplessy. There's no more point reliving and dwelling in the hell. You can leave and drag yourself out from the darkness and back into the lovely sunshine where it's okay to feel happy. No ones judging, no one of great importance at least. You are free now!!🤩