I have not cut in awhile - trying not to! but even on days when i am feeling pretty good i just feel the urge to do it! feel the pain, see the blood! it brings a weird sence of satisfaction. thougth i was a late bloomer to self inflicted pain but it was after stopping doing aggressive sports (and feeling very disappointed for not getting hurt) that i realised it was always there - the only difference is that now i have to hide my injuries.