Hang on! I am a man diagnosed about 10 years ago. I am now age 67. It took me several cycles thru existential depression, the last about a year ago. I am very fortunate to live with my wife who is also likely ASD, too, but she does not quite realize it. It made it so much easier for me to work with her when I realized if I treat her as my loving ASD wife we get along so much better. It took me about 5 years post DX to begin to get stable. The hardest thing is realizing EVERYTHING in my memory has been skewed by ASD. As I look backward in time the memories literally dissolve changing from the memory of being "me" to memories looking at a different child w ASD.