Is it worth it to look for a job during covid / the pandemic? I'm disabled and haven't worked in 7 years. I applied for services with my local state disability employment office. The worker there sent me an email asking me if I "feel ready" to work, "because last time" my practitioner told them my work readiness was "fair." It was discouraging to hear bc this was right b4 the pandemic and I was indeed ready to work and had done work on myself, albeit I was nervous.

Then the pandemic hit. The services slowed to a halt. And I also lost momentum and was afraid to work bc if covid. The woman I was working with (same woman who just emailed me) and I decided I would stop their services at that time.
I was going to go to school for medical billing and coding. But I wasn't emotionally ready after moving twice and I didn't think it was what I really wanted to do.

I feel like I need to get myself together but talking to this employment service has felt like I'm hitting a brick wall and I really will need help if I'm to work and apply for jobs.

Maybe I'm Not ready anymore. Part of me doesn't want to work. At least, not during covid and not as a stocker / cleaner. I'm overwhelmed and really feel I need guidance. I will talk to my T next week. Maybe I will go to plan B: School. I AM taking classes atm to get my peer specialist certification. I have no confidence in that though.

I hate this pandemic. I hate that I'm so unsure and have no confidence.

I think part of why I want to work is so I feel better about myself for having a job. To be like everyone else. I don't want that to be my reason to work.

Talking to my T this week, we agreed I'd give peer work a chance. Its the only way I'll know if its for me.