I wish I new then, what I know now. I was not a bad parent, just overwhelmed and alone. I was taught a lot of really horrible stuff and was completely ignored; I did not exists, and tried so hard to be different to mine. Both parents mentally ill. I did mess them up a bit, but I suppose most of us do. Early childhood development fascinates me now. I understand the depth of its importance. The first year and then the next seven are critical in a child's life. I am in touch with the younger part of myself now. With awareness and education I am trying to treat myself better and my kids. Knowledge is definitely power.