Though i wouldn't go as far, celebrating other people's Deaths, i do not think You have some obligation to go There, the Funeral. After All, it doesn't seem like You were close to her, quite the opposite really. Since You clearly feel uncomfortable about it, Perhaps it is a Good IDEA avoiding going There. i Don't think You need to feel too guilty about it. it was a bad chapter in Your Life. it may be best to simply Move on. SEnding many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @NatalieJastrow, Your Family, Your FriEnds And ALL of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!