One issue with me is that I have a history of certain friends back stabbing me, ghosting me, not trying to resolve issues in a mature way. I'm the type of person who always tries to be there for my friends, not make waves, I generally avoid conflict. But I've had some toxic friendships before, which has affected my trust. Now that I have a couple of what seems to be healthy friendships, I really hope that will stay.

I have very few friends, I'm introverted, often feel misunderstood. So when I do connect with someone, I try to do everything I can to hold onto the friendship and really value it. I reached out to one of my best friends a week ago by text, haven't heard back from her, which is rare. I've been very worried that I did something to upset her and keep thinking back to see if there's anything at all that I could have done wrong. Just sent her a text wishing her a Happy Thanksgiving and said I hope everything's okay. Then there was one of those automated texts sent when someone has it set up that they are driving. But if I don't hear from her, I'm going to really think the worst. If I lose her, I hardly have anyone left.

This might sound silly or overblown, but to me, it is big deal when I sense a change in someone's behavior or if they don't respond to me, because I feel terrible about myself. I don't contact friends constantly or text them my problems all the time, so I don't see the issue being that I drain them.

How do I cope with these feelings? And if she did in fact ghost me, how do I move forward?