i have been thru a tremendous amount the past 3 years. it has left me in an unique situation and one h**l of a spot. and just thought i could share this 'special take on things', something that just came to me today!
[the 'original thought' wasn't as long but wasn't written down, and so this is the main thought/idea]


there are parts of me that want to give up - 'outer' parts that have had too much and are done with it all! i'm thankful that You see my heart and my soul, what's truly inside of me! You see my inner strength and continue to renew it. i'm thankful that no matter how much of my 'outer' side goes against me, that You know that 'inner' side and still love me, and You will never let me go! that on those days when there's nothing left, You become that part of me that somehow keeps me going! that when nothing seems to matter, You speak to my heart in only a way that You can - saying 'it's okay and I know, I'm still here so forget everything else'! i'm thankful You keep holding on when i can't anymore!