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Originally Posted by guy1111
I feel for you. This stuff rocks our core. It knocks down your self-esteem to rubble. Just remember, it is not your doing. He always had a choice. Don't give up on your self! You are very bright and eloquent in your posts. You have very good insights and have helped alot of people here. Happy Thanksgiving.
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Aw, thanks for the nice compliments and for your sympathy.
Last night I started to wonder if his cheating was MY fault somehow - was I not interesting or exciting enough? Lately, I was going to bed very early, and not too long after he would come home from work and after dinner.
I also know that I really cannot and should not blame myself. It's HIS doing. HE chose this. He knew 100% that it was the ONE thing that I would unequivocally divorce over.
He had his chance. I gave him a second chance in July when I was going to divorce him then.
This is the icing on the cake on top of the abuse. I am beside myself.
Thanksgiving at least was a break from him physically speaking. I was alone at my parents' house, hiding out for the entire day.