I hope things are better Hallie. You don't deserve someone that would give you that kind of gift...even as a joke. It's not funny. Let's not even consider the fact that you aren't supposed to have weapons at school. He sounds dangerous for you (dangerous in general).

I hope you are safe. There is someone out there for you that will not only love you, but will support your effort to stop SI-ing.

(((((Hallie)))))