You’ve already identified many of the negative self-talk that you have grown to believe about yourself. I would think the next step would be to challenge those thoughts, and also replace the negative self talk with positive self talk. This I’m sure will take a LOT of work and repetition. But it IS possible to reprogram our brains and our beliefs about ourselves.

Another thought would be to seek out people and experiences that are POSITIVE in your life, and release the negative.

Also figuring out your own mantra may help. Some of my mantras over the past few years have been: “I am enough.” “I am strong.” “I am able.” And “So ****ing what.” =) I used to think mantras were silly, but I have grown fond of them and have found them very helpful in my own life, especially when I am struggling. You’ll have to dig deep to find what works for you

Sending you good thoughts through this time of growth 💫