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Originally Posted by Miss Laura
I was discharged from my Community Support Worker today. She is part of my treatment team. She is in the same building as my Psychiatrist etc and is part of the Community Mental Health Team in my local area. I have been seeing a Support Worker for 7 years. For the last 5 years they have been trying to discharge me and today was my final meet up. I'm so gutted, scared, upset etc. I knew last week this was going to be the last but I really do struggle with endings this one was no different. I got her a card and gave her but ask she didn't read it until I left her as I was already crying grrr! I hope she liked it. I feel lost now. I'm not recovered I'm not in recovery. So I don't know why they have discharged me
To top it off we were speaking re the depot injection and I said my Psychiatrist wants me back on Depakote but what's the point. No-one has ever said this to me. She said I have Bipolar with Psychotic Symptoms. What?!?! I am like oh right I didn't know that??? Help!!! Feel this has made me think I'm worse or even crazy???
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I think it’s just when manic... I went through it. First I thought God was sending me visions... real stuff like I had this dream about a spider. I went into the garage and opened a random box and a spider crawled out. I killed it. Then I looked into the box and found 3 books, one on dreams, one about a murder, and the other with bible verses! They all unlocked mysteries that I thought were more than a coincidence like my husbands brother committed suicide and he told me he wanted a lost boys tattoo on him. Well the murder book said a lost boy on the cover.... then the dream book had a lock and key on it and I kept finding locks and keys everywhere around the house.... but then it got worse when my sister gave me some weed she said it would help me sleep.... that’s when I thought I was the Flash and could stop time. I also said and did more and she had me hospitalized.... so ya I have psychotic features too.... and I found out weed makes us worse and can bring out psychosis!!