It's been 9,5 months since I had any real fun. And it kills me to see people around me disregarding all the rules and having parties, hanging out in groups... so selfish! I'm really starting to struggle now, as much as I try to do things I enjoy that are still allowed, it's not enough. I've only been able to go home once, saw my parents and my best friends twice this entire year.
And I'm really trying to think of the greater good, if we all stick to the rules, things will get better.... but we're NOT all sticking to the rules and it feels like I'm just making myself miserable for nothing.

Going grocery shopping today was a nightmare. I had to go early in the evening because I had to work, otherwise I would've gone in the morning. It was so crowded and people were shopping with their entire families, both parents with all the kids. How are people still not aware of the advice to stay home as much as possible? I do not understand, I truly don't

And now I feel bad for complaining about not having any fun when people are very sick or dying from this virus. But it's tough without any company.