Hey everyone,
I'm new to here but felt the need to jot down some thoughts I have been rolling around my head since my last therapy appointment. I was diagnosed with BPD and Bi-polar and a few other things beginning of this summer. I started therapy and we have started going back to some of those past memories and looking at why I react the way I do to situations. This morning I'm really struggling with why I am attracted to rough sex and any other type I'm not into at all. It attracts all the wrong guys and yet I have no interest in the sweet kind men. My therapist talks about how it's associated with the sexual abuse I went through as a child. I just am tired of being attracted to people who are bad for me.