I'm so sorry that you are going through this. It sounds like hell. I agree with Naosky that the presentation of mania can involve behavior that may seem psychotic - visions, vivid dreams, hallucinations, etc. I have definitely had these experiences. It sounds like you are being given conflicting points of view and other's historical experiences thrust upon you without them revealing their thoughts to you in a therapeutic manner. I hope you can find help and other points of view.