I feel like it would be disturbing for her, to see me sitting around and crying all the time. She's seen enough of it already, I think, and there's already been enough chaos - I want to try to be as normal as possible around her, so she doesn't end up confused. If something terrible happens, and I cry, that's one thing. If I drink my coffee, and I cry, and I make the bed, and I cry, and I read a book, and I cry, and so on and so forth, that's another thing. Does that make sense?