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Originally Posted by KBMK
I would guess that, if you are feeling lots of sadness and fear most of the time, you have deeply suppressed your anger and joy. It can be really scary to face up to anger that's been repressed, and sad to face up to joy that's been repressed too, so sometimes it's really got to get worse for it to get better.
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That's really interesting.. I really don't feel anger OR joy. I can feel both in a brief flash, but then it's gone. I don't mind not feeling anger, as it makes me feel really uncomfortable. But I miss feeling joy.
I don't know why I'd repress it - maybe I don't feel like I deserve it.
I have felt lots and lots and lots of sadness & fear about the crap things that I've dealt with in my life, but I totally have not dealt with anger at all so I can totally see how I would have repressed a whole heck of a lot of it. Kind of unnerving to imagine the levels of anger/rage I probably have boxed up in the backroom of my brain. I almost wonder if I should wait till my youngest is 18 & in college, and then check myself in someplace with a padded room to figure it out.
Only another 5 or so years.
I just don't think 1 hour-long sesson every month or so is going to get me through such a messy excavation.
Something to think about.... And worry about... LOL