Back to feeling that disconnection, and not so hopeful that things will be the same ever. Back to feeling so distant and unsure if therapy is working. Amazing how things change so fast. How you matter so much and now i think i can let you go! Though i am feeling very depersonalized at the moment. Even the phone i am trying on feels fake. My thoughts seem slow and moments too. At times time seems as though its frozen, i call for you and no sound. This is so unreal. At times not sure i want to be real, i continue to not see what is in front of me and missing the important things. Its all in my head though. All in my head.