I do understand this

when I was younger I'd write in my online journal (multiple times a day), I'd write poetry based on my experiences of mental health, and, at some point I wrote a few stories (nothing fancy or anything, just for enjoyment) one I wrote was about a family's trip to walt disney world.. probably the only one I stuck to, which is sad because some of my other ideas could have gone somewhere if I let them ( I started one about a little girl who had a computer which was part time machine, which I think was cool)

but:

I've not written in my journal now since 2014 (however it's still up for the memorie), I've not written a poem since my christmas when depressed (I had plans for a christmas when mannic, but never did it) and, I've not written a story since.... I think the last time I wrote a story was the final chapter to my florida story.. 2016?. possibly a bit before?