It's gorgeous today... really sunny, warm and it's a Saturday so I can do pretty much anything. But I'm really depressed (even having thoughts that I can no longer cope)
Don't get me wrong, I've tried... been outside for a walk and spent time with my rabbit in the sun, but nothing's stopping the physical pain in my heart
I'm so lonely for a start (today and every day)... I have no friends, so I can't phone anyone to see if they'd like to do anything. My family are all busy (and there are issues there anyway) and my boyfriend won't talk to me and I want to scream at him so badly because it's hurting so much and it's not like I can go round because he's 100's of miles away at uni. To be honest I really can't cope with the constant heartache over him but I love him so much and he's the only good thing in my life
I guess this is just another rant, but everything has been getting worse lately (my health, home life, education... boyfriend) I just feel so hurt and depressed and it feels such a waste 'cause it's a nice day and everyone else I see is enjoying themselves. I'm just trying to keep my head above water and trying to ride the day out as best I can.
Just wish my boyfriend would talk to me though, it'd make it a lot easier

Molly