There's no such thing as perfect Parenting, people simply try to do their Best. Can i ask You how Old is Your Eldest? if he's still in his teenage Years i'd say his behavior is quite "normal". In any case, we ALL make mistakes And i wouldn't dwell too much on it And on Past Regrets. Simply Focus on Being the Best Parent You can Be. SEnding many Safe, Warm Hugs to BOTH You, @Toughcooki, Your Family, Your FriEnds, Your children And ALL of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting And keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!