I finally cancelled my next appointment with my counselor and I didn't answer when she called and texted me.

I just feel like vanishing from society and not have anything to do with the social services, the unemployment agency or any authorities at all. They can't help me and I'm not that bothered anymore.

I could accept to live outside society if I just got my welfare and then authorities and others could just leave me be. I can accept nothing can be done.

I've tried for many years so this is not a post about strategies or trying harder. I can accept my faith but can't live on nothing.

My counselor can now use my slot to do errands, call her children or anything else.