I am so sorry that thing have gotten to this point and you are feeling like this.

I believe that I understand that feeling, although of course I am not you and can't know for sure.

You wrote:

Is that a realistic possibility in your situation? If so, then I would still encourage you to discuss this with your counselor, because there may be some paperwork she needs to fill out in order to get that going.

It sounds as if you are feeling that you are a bother to your counselor and, you don't want to do that. However, it is her job to see you, and if you need her to fill out the paperwork, then it is really OK, and reasonable, to talk to her about that. And, even if not likely, perhaps she may know of some sort of alternative treatment that she could recommend.

Please keep us posted.