It’s really refreshing to hear your perspective with these things, Tisha and Divine. Anything like a wedding is a big deal in itself, but it’s equally as huge to plan everything. In the rare event you do get accepts from all the “should invites” it could even spell out moving to a location that suits a higher capacity. But just like I did when this whole thing started I have a tendency to get inside my mind and over analyze. I wish I wasn’t cursed with this trait, but I must have what’s in genetics speak the homozygous dominant trait lol both myself and others around me have noticed that I am getting analytical at the present which this trait pretty much always worsens when topics like a barrage of wedding invites come up. When I put my inner cynic aside and get to the root I think he just wants me to partake in his joyous occasion, as we were close for several years. But at the same time I’m also going through a lot myself, I haven’t been employed for a year, mostly due to COVID, so I don’t know if I’ll be at home in June or halfway across the country. And with all of that mixed in with my insecurities I guess I also don’t have the best capacity right now to reconnect with someone who hasn’t really been a part of my life in a few years.