I spent most of today trying hard not to self harm and crying on and off. This would be defined as a crisis for me.The funny thing is that I can not reach you at all, but I'm pretty sure you've already read my email which I sent 35 hours ago but chosen to ignore it, for the sake of the greater good.

I have no safety net. I live alone and I feel really really bad.

I searched and found my own post from the 22nd october 2020. Another crisis and I've talked about exactly the same thing that I could not reach you despite even giving you a missed call. Yes I did get through it eventually but it so was very hard.

I'm asking for extra help and I feel like you can't see me at all. I'm angry but mainly at myself for putting up with this.

Maybe I am just being manipulative and dramatic but please do cancel my upcoming session and I won't be paying for not attending this time.