Hi Everyone,

I haven’t been posting as I’ve been struggling with bad benzo withdrawals and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Since February I have been tapering off benzos. For eleven years I have been on increasingly high doses. At the beginning of the year I was on the equivalent of 140 mg diazepam. This was all prescribed. I never abused it. I finally got fed up needing ridiculously high doses so I begun cutting my dose in February. Now I am down to 42.5 mg diazepam (=2 mg Clonazepam plus 2.5 mg diazepam). I take Clonazapam and use diazepam to make the small cuts - 1.25 mg of diazepam each cut) I hope this makes sense.

This has been a tough year, but the withdrawals are only worsening. I shake, have a racing hear, and get awful nerve pain and insomnia. My nerves are always on edge. The problem is it may take me another two years to get off this evil drug. I’m scared. It may only get worse from here. My new pdoc is very understanding, but there is little she can do. She wanted to have me on diazepam only but my dose is too high still as I would need 8.5 tablets a day(5 mg tablets). This relentless suffering is wearing me down. I’m trapped. Increasing my dose is not an option as I will only put myself in a worse position.

Has anyone else been through this? Any advice? I feel so alone. Staring at two more years of relentless suffering is daunting. I am worried I’ll break.