Thanks daladico! It's not really anxiety and I don't think it's paranoia either, even though I am afraid that people will think I'm acting strangely. I have had a lot of anxiety, but this hasn't been one of the topics of it. It's just that everything seems confusing and weird and unreal, and walking outside kind of feels like I'm feeling my way through a dark unfamiliar room. The outside world is confusing but it's also kind of confusing in my head, like I might forget to put on shoes when I go outside and things like that. I usually manage to avoid mistakes, but everything takes a lot of conscious thought, even simple things. I've been getting increasingly uncomfortable around people, too, maybe for similar reasons.

I don't think it has gotten worse since covid. I have been severely depressed for a long time (sometimes with mixed features showing up), and it feels like it has something to do with that. I'm in the process of getting some new treatment started right now but it's taking a long time, and I haven't really talked about this part yet.