Interesting hearing from everyone about their triggers. For me I’m not so sure. I’ve gone through some serious stuff throughout my life and nothing seemed to trigger me. My mom has bipolar and I never thought I was at risk for it since I’d gone through so much and always made it through. So maybe it was a combination of triggers. The only thing I can think of that made it surface was going through the pandemic and I decided to stop watching tv. I freed up my time to work on things around the house and then started teaching from home. I was so happy and excited to be able to stay at home with my then 1 year old daughter. Everyday became more and more exciting. I started reaching out to family and friends that I had not spoken to in awhile and my high school teacher told me that I should write a book and she would be my editor. I got more excited and started writing. I also helped my family have online birthday parties using zoom. Around the same time my mom told me my cousin was raising a baby girl he just had. I know that had to be another trigger because my cousin was the family secret. He molested many of my cousins including my younger sister and brother and made me walk in on it after I refused to let him touch me. I called CPS and told them the family secret. I was a kid when it happened and my Grandma told us we were lying. I remember feeling a rush of anxiety, like this power surge of fear that I was going to get in trouble for snitching. I even started uncontrollably shaking. I thought I developed an anxiety disorder over it. Then when it came to the book I started writing in the middle of the night and couldn’t stop writing. I’d write for hours. I don’t even remember if I was sleeping or not. So I’m not sure if it was the pandemic, teaching, my cousin, the book, overworking, or just a combination of all of it.