Thank you so much everyone. It is a comfort to have your support. Last night I made another cut of 1.25 mg of diazepam bringing my daily dose down to 41.25 mg. I feel awful already. My whole body is shaking. It will most likely worsen for a few days before easing. Then I cut again. It is relentless suffering, and I most likely have years of it left.

Today I have plans to visit a friend but now I’m not sure if I feel up to it. I rarely see friends so I hate to have to cancel. My whole life is on hold because of this and the Chronic Fatigue. Thankfully, I am not depressed or manic or mixed or I would be in danger. I have been psychologically stable all year. One positive.
I’m trying to be zen about this situation. Meditation helps. I’m prepared for a marathon. What is another two years of suffering when you have been suffering for 37 years already. My freedom is in my sights. Two years away.