I'm getting through this holiday okay I think. I put up my little tree before Thanksgiving to cheer myself up, started up the Christmas music. And, thank goodness for Amazon! I'm in lockdown, so no shopping. I told everyone to expect one gift only (I usually go crazy with the gifts), and they're all okay with it. I was alone on Thanksgiving, very sad since my family lives five minutes away. But we've decided to expand our family bubble to include me. They're nervous since I'm 68, but frankly I don't know which is worse, covid or this crushing depression. It's a matter of survival at this point.