I got my first paycheck and am dying to spend it all on bills. I already bought christmas gifts a few left to buy but not mandatory. I'm not really in the holiday spirit, more in the sooner i pay off the debt the sooner i can get a nicer car, maybe plan a life outside of disability.

I just feel like rambling. I want to be normal but really like relaxing. So will likely stay on disability but my job might push me off it. I just want to be rich. It's so much nicer. I was a rich kid.