I wasn't bullied into a diagnosis. That's not what happened at all. I was seeking help and definitely had a light form of autism and severe agitation, disorganized thoughts at least. I've had mental illness since I was a kid.

Then again I have no idea but I'd rather not think about it and just continue with my life.

I stayed awake for 36 hours yesterday and was at the restaurant table and my mom was like "Are you OK?". I felt literally like my cognition was like I wasn't taking meds and I was paranoid. I'm glad that I don't feel like that all the time.

I'm very grateful that I function well on meds - I wish I could stop taking them but I tried and I just get really agitated to the point where I could cause harm to myself or others.