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Originally Posted by Have Hope
The attachment I feel to him is for the good parts of him only and wanting just those parts of him. That attachment is strong.
Then when I think of all the abuse, I am disgusted, it's sooo disturbing, and I want to RUN the other way.
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The loving side of him is likely giving you a good hit of dopamine and the fact that is comes randomly feeds into addiction (I bet you have seen studies in psychology that show random reinforcement is much more powerful than consistent reinforcement).
Also, while you go through this, make sure you are taking care of yourself by getting plenty of rest, etc. It is hard to overcome addictions of any kind when we are living a stressful life IMO.