And from a podcast I heard this morning on trauma bonding:

TRAUMA BOND

FEELING REPULSION BUT AT SAME TIME, HAVING A STRONG DESIRE TO BE CONNECTED, WHICH IS THE COGNITIVE DISSONANCE THAT OCCURS, AND THE TRAUMA BOND AT WORK.

TO GET OUT OF THE TRAUMA BOND (Stockholm syndrome): IDENTIFY HIM FOR WHO HE IS: NARCISSIST, ABUSER, MANIPULATOR, PREDATOR, SOCIOPATH, PATHOLOGICAL LIAR, CHEATER, ETC.

YOU DON'T GET BETTER UNTIL YOU LABEL AND IDENTIFY, AND THEN ACCEPT THIS TRUTH. TRAUMA BOND IS SHATTERED THROUGH THIS IDENTIFICATION.