i don't have a lot of Advice to give to You. Just wanted to Wish You the Absolute BEST of Luck with Whatever You Will decide. Stay Strong. SEnding many Safe, Warm Hugs to BOTH You, @Iridescentforest, Your Family, Your FriEnds, Your Husband And ALL of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting And keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!