I got a call from my sister today. It was later than I wanted it to be. It went alright but not real great. I spoke to her son today for the first time in over 14 years. He sounded so different.

Took a long bike ride today. And then I did some small shopping after that. I got in the Jacuzzi at where I live tonight. It's the last time for me to go in there for at least 3 weeks because of the order to close it due to COVID.

I'm still feeling bad about letting my friend go. I get urges to call him but I'm afraid to get into that cycle again. I miss him because he was all that I had. If I had others, I wouldn't have bothered with him. Plus he wouldn't need me if he wasn't in such bad shape. Though as of now, he's at least a little bit better off than I am socially.