It's says a lot about a humans ability to deny the obvious that I can go along for weeks thinking I'm not depressed than out of the blue it hits me and looking back I realize that I was functioning but my depression never went away. I have this playlist of songs that when I get depressed I listen to. Not to cheer me up, but I guess to fit my mood. Anybody like James Taylor? Shower the people, in the beginning says, " you can play the game, you can act out the part, but you know it wasn't written for you" So relatable. That's why I don't have any freinds. I would have play the part, and after several decades, it's just not worth it. How about Woody Guthrie " I aint got no home in this world" Lets not even go there. Seems like my whole lifes just been a mess, no mater how hard ive tryed.