i cant. i cant express anything toward him directly. He knows *exactly* what happens to me if our relationship is threatened even a bit.. and i bring him little presents... bake him stuff and wrap it all up. He knows i am very attached. But no.. i have not, nor can i yet say anything that directly expresses gratitude or affection.

i read the article and came back... i think i just always feel as though i dont matter much to people and that an expression of thanx like that would be overstepping somehow.. like making an assumption that they cared..