It is WONDERFUL that You're taking steps to Help Yourself. Good for You! Can i ask You why You can't see a therapist Right Now? You don't have to answer. In any case, i'd suggest reading some self-Help books on the subject. You've already bought some books so that is REALLY Good as well. Hopefully this forum Will Be of Help as Well. Also check out some relaxation And yoga techniques if You Want. SEnding many Safe, Warm Hugs to BOTH You, @Whereto52, Your Family, Your FriEnds And ALL of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting And keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!